California Dreamin´: The 1937 Vision of Joe Brandt, 17
                             
"This is California. We are going into the sea!"
                             
I  woke up in the hospital room with a terrific headache--as if the whole  world was revolving inside my brain. I remember, vaguely, the fall from  my horse--Blackie. As I lay there, pictures began to form in my  mind--pictures that stood sill. I seemed to be in another world. Whether  it was the future, or it was some ancient land, I could not say. Then  slowly, like the silver screen of the "talkies", but with color and  smell and sound, I seemed to find myself in Los Angeles--but I swear it  was much bigger, and buses and odd-shaped cars crowded the city streets.  I thought about Hollywood Boulevard, and I found myself there. Whether  this is true, I do not know, but there were a lot of guys my age with  beards and wearing, some of them, earrings. All the girls, some of them  keen-o, wore real short skirts...and they slouched along--moving like a  dance. Yet they seemed familiar. I wondered if I could talk to them, and  I said, "Hello" but they didn't see or hear me. I decided I would look  as funny to them as they looked to me. I guess it is something you have  to learn. I couldn't do it. I noticed there was a quietness about the  air, a kind of stillness. Something else was missing, something that  should be there. At first, I couldn't figure it out, I didn't know what  it was--then I did. There were no birds. I listened. I walked two blocks  north of the Boulevard--all houses--no birds. I wondered what had  happened to them. Had they gone away? Again, I could hear the stillness.  Then I knew something was going to happen. I wondered what year it was.  It certainly was not 1937. I saw a newspaper on the corner with a  picture of the President. It surely wasn't Mr.Roosevelt. He was bigger,  heavier, big ears. If it wasn't 1937, I wondered what year it was. . My  eyes weren't working right. Someone was coming--someone in 1937--it was  that darned, fat nurse ready to take my temperature. I woke up. Crazy  dream. 
                             
[The  next day]. Gosh, my headache is worse. It is a wonder I didn't get  killed on that horse. I've had another crazy dream, back in  Hollywood.Those people. Why do they dress like that, I wonder? Funny  glow about them. It is a shine around their heads--something shining. I  remember it now. I found myself back on the Boulevard. I was waiting for  something to happen and I was going to be there. I looked up at the  clock down by that big theater. It was ten minutes to four. Something  big was going to    happen. I wondered if I went into a movie (since  nobody could see me) if I'd like it. Some cardboard blond was draped  over the marquee with her leg six feet long. I started to go in, but it  wasn't inside. I was waiting for something to happen outside. I walked  down the street. In the concrete they have names of stars. I just  cognized a few of them. The other names I had never heard. I was getting  bored, I wanted to get back to the hospital in Fresno, and I wanted to  stay there on the Boulevard, even if nobody could see me. Those crazy  kids. Why are they dressed like that? Maybe it is some big Halloween  doings, but it don't seem like Halloween. More like early spring. There  was that sound again, that lack of sound. Stillness, stillness,  stillness. The quiet is getting bigger and bigger. I know it is going to  happen. Something is going to happen. It is happening now! It sure did.
                             
She  woke me up, grinning and smiling, that fat one again. "It's time for  your milk, kiddo"she says. Gosh, old women of thirty acting like the  cat's pajamas. Next time maybe she'll bring hot chocolate.Where have I  been? Where haven't I been? I've been to the ends of the earth and back.  I've been to the end of the world--there isn't anything left. Not even  Fresno, even though I'm lying here right this minute. If only my eyes  would get a little clearer so I can write all this down. Nobody will  believe me, anyway.
                             
I'm  going back to that last moment on the Boulevard. Some sweet kid went  past, dragging little boys (twins, I guess) by each hand. Her skirt was  up--well, pretty high--and she had a tired look. I thought for a minute I  could ask her about the birds, what had happened to them, and then I  remembered she hadn't seen me. Her hair was all frowzy, way out all over  her head. A lot of them looked like that, but she looked so tired and  like she was sorry about something. I guess she was sorry before it  happened--because it surely did happen. There was a funny smell. I don't  know where it came from. I didn't like it. A smell like sulphur,  sulfuric acid, a smell like death. For a minute I thought I was back in  chem [chemistry]. When I looked around for the girl, she was gone. I  wanted to find her for some reason. It was as if I knew something was  going to happen and I could stay with her, help her. She was gone, and I  walked half a block, then I saw the clock again. My eyes seemed glued  to that clock. I couldn't move. I just waited. It was five minutes to  four on a sunny afternoon. I thought I would stand there looking at that  clock forever waiting for something to come. Then, when it came, it was  nothing. It was just nothing. It wasn't nearly as hard as the  earthquake we had two years ago. The ground shook, just an instant.  People looked at each other, surprised. Then they laughed. I laughed,  too. So this was what I had been waiting for. This funny little shake.  It meant nothing. I was relieved and I was disappointed. What had I been  waiting for?
                             
I  started back up the Boulevard, moving my legs like those kids. How do  they do it? I never found out. I felt as if the ground wasn't solid  under me. I knew I was dreaming, and yet I wasn't dreaming. There was  that smell again, coming up from the ocean. I was getting to the 5 and  10 store and I saw the look on the kids' faces. Two of them were right  in front of me,coming my way. "Let's get out of this place. Let's go  back East" He seemed scared. It wasn't as if the sidewalks were  trembling--but you couldn't seem to see them. Not with your eyes you  couldn't. An old lady had a dog, a little white dog, and she stopped and  looked scared, and grabbed him in her arms and said: "Let's go home,  Frou, Frou. Mama is going to take you home." That poor lady, hanging on  to her dog. I got scared. Real scared. I remembered the girl. She was  way down the block, probably. I ran and ran, and the ground kept  trembling. I couldn't see it. I couldn't see it. But I knew it was  trembling. Everybody looked scared. They looked terrible. One young lady  just sat down on the sidewalk all doubled up. She kept saying,  "earthquake, its the earthquake," over and over. But I couldn't see that  anything was different. Then, when it came, how it came. Like nothing  in God's world. Like nothing. It was like the scream of a siren, long  and low, or the scream of a woman I heard having a baby when I was a  kid. It was awful. It was as if something--some monster--was pushing up  the sidewalks. You felt it long before you saw it, as if the sidewalks  wouldn't hold you anymore. I looked out at the cars. They were honking,  but not scared. They just kept moving. They didn't seem to know yet that  anything was happening. Then, that white car, that baby half-sized one  came sprawling from the inside lane right against the curb.
                             
The  girl who was driving just sat there. She sat there with her eyes  staring, as if she couldn't move, but I could hear her. She made funny  noises. I watched her, thinking of the other girl. I said that it was a  dream and I would wakeup. But I didn't wake up. The shaking had started  again, but this time different. It was a nice shaking, like a cradle  being rocked for a minute, and then I saw the middle of the Boulevard  seem to be breaking in two. The concrete looked as if it were being  pushed straight up by some giant shovel. It was breaking in two. That is  why the girl's car went out of control. And then a loud sound again,  like I've never heard before--then hundreds of sounds--all kinds of  sounds; children, and women, and those crazy guys with earrings. They  were all moving, some of them above the sidewalk. I can't describe it.  They were lifted up.. And the waters kept oozing--oozing. The cries.  God, it was awful. I woke up. I never want to have that dream again. It  came again. Like the first time which was a preview and all I could  remember was that it was the end of the world. I was right back  there--all that crying. Right in the middle of it. My eardrums felt as  if they were going to burst. Noise everywhere. People falling down, some  of them hurt badly. Pieces of buildings, chips, flying in the air. One  hit me hard on the side of the face, but I didn't seem to feel it. I  wanted to wake up, to get away from this place. It had been fun in the  beginning, the first dream, when I kind of knew I was going to dream the  end of the world or something. This was terrible. There were older  people in cars. Most of the kids were on the street. But those old guys  were yelling bloody murder, as if anybody could help them. Nobody could  help anybody. It was then I felt myself lifted up. Maybe I had died. I  don't know. But I was over the city. It was tilting toward the  ocean--like a picnic table. The buildings were holding, better than you  could believe. They were holding. They were holding. They were holding.  The people saw they were holding and they tried to cling to them or get  inside. It was fantastic. Like a building had a will of its own.  Everything else breaking around them, and they were holding, holding. I  was up over them--looking down. I started to root for them. "Hold that  line" I said. "Hold that line. Hold that line. Hold that line"I wanted  to cheer, to shout, to scream. If the buildings held, those buildings on  the Boulevard, maybe the girl--the girl with the two kids--maybe she  could get inside. It looked that way for a long time, maybe three  minutes, and three minutes was like forever. You knew they were going to  hold, even if the waters kept coming up.
                             
Only  they didn't. I've never imagined what it would be like for a building  to die. A building dies just like a person. It gives way, some of the  bigger ones did just that. They began to crumble, like an old man with  palsy, who couldn't take it anymore. They crumbled right down to  nothing. And the little ones screamed like mad--over and above the roar  of the people. They were mad about dying. But buildings die. I couldn't  look anymore at the people. I kept wanting to get higher. Then I seemed  to be out of it all, but I could see. I seemed to be up on Big Bear near  San Bernardino, but the funny thing was that I could see everywhere. I  knew what was happening. The earth seemed to start to tremble again. I  could feel it even though I was high up. This time it lasted maybe  twelve seconds, and it was gentle. You couldn't believe anything so  gentle could cause so much damage. But then I saw the streets of Los  Angeles--and everything between the San Bernardino mountains and Los  Angeles. It was still tilting towards the ocean, houses, everything that  was left. I could see the big lanes--dozens of big lanes still loaded  with cars sliding the same way. Now the ocean was coming in, moving like  a huge snake across the land. I wondered how long it was, and I could  see the clock, even though I wasn't there on the Boulevard. It was 4:29.  It had been half an hour. I was glad I couldn't hear the crying  anymore. But I could see everything. I could see everything. Then, like  looking at a huge map of the world, I could see what was happening on  the land and with the people. San Francisco was feeling it, but she was  not in any way like Hollywood or Los Angeles.
It was moving just like  that earthquake movie with Jeanette McDonald and Gable. I could see all  those mountains coming together...I knew it was going to happen to San  Francisco--it was going to turn over--it would turn upside down. It went  quickly, because of the twisting, I guess. It seemed much faster than  Hollywood, but then I wasn't exactly there. I was a long way off. I was a  long, long way off. I shut my eyes for a long time--I guess ten  minutes--and when I opened them I saw Grand Canyon. When I looked at  Grand Canyon, that great big gap was closing in, and Boulder Dam was  being pushed, from underneath. And then, Nevada, and on up to Reno. Way  down south, way down. Baja, California. Mexico too. It looked like some  volcano down there was erupting, along with everything else. I saw the  map of South America, especially Colombia. Another  volcano--eruption--shaking violently. I seemed to be seeing a movie of  three months before--before the Hollywood earthquake. Venezuela seemed  to be having some kind of volcanic activity. Away off in the distance, I  could see Japan, on a fault, too. It was so far off--not easy to see  because I was still on Big Bear Mountain, but it started to go into the  sea. I couldn't hear screaming, but I could see the surprised look on  their faces. They looked so surprised. Japanese girls are made well,  supple, easy, muscles that move well. Pretty, too. But they were all  like dolls. It was so far away I could hardly see it. In a minute or two  it seemed over. Everybody was gone. There was nobody left. I didn't  know time now. I couldn't see a clock. I tried to see the island of  Hawaii. I could see huge tidal waves beating against it. The people on  the streets were getting wet, and they were scared. But I didn't see  anybody go into the sea.
                             
I  seemed way around the globe. More flooding. Is the world going to be  drenched? Constantinople. Black Sea rising. Suez Canal, for some reason  seemed to be drying up. Sicily--she doesn't hold. I could see a map. Mt  Etna. Mt. Etna is shaking. A lot of area seemed to go, but it seemed to  be earlier or later. I wasn't sure of time, now. England--huge  floods--but no tidal waves. Water, water everywhere, but no one was  going into the sea. People were frightened and crying. Some places they  fell to the streets on their knees and started to pray for the world. I  didn't know the English were emotional. Ireland, Scotland--all kinds of  churches were rowded--it seemed night and day. People were carrying  candles and everybody was crying for California, Nevada, parts of  Colorado--maybe even all of it, even Utah. Everybody was crying--most of  them didn't even know anybody in California, Nevada, Utah, but they  were crying as if they were blood kin. Like one family. Like it happened  to them. New York was coming into view--she was still there, nothing  had happened, yet water level was way up. Here, things were different.  People were running in the streets yelling--"end of the  world." Kids ran into restaurants and ate everything in sight. I  saw a shoe store with all the shoes gone in about five minutes. 5th  Avenue--everybody running. Some radio blasting--bigger--a loud  speaker--that in a few minutes, power might be shut off. They must  control themselves. Five girls were running like mad toward the Y.M.C.A., that place on Lexington  or somewhere. But nothing was happening in New York. I saw an old lady  with garbage cans filling them with water. Everybody seemed scared to  death. Some people looked dazed. The streets seemed filled with loud  speakers.
                             
It  wasn't daylight. It was night. I saw, like the next day, and everything  was topsy turvey. Loud speakers again about fuel tanks broken in  areas--shortage of oil. People seemed to be looting markets. I saw a lot  of places that seemed safe, and people were not so scared. Especially  the rural areas. Here everything was almost as if nothing had happened.  People seemed headed to these places, some on foot, some in cars that  still had fuel. I heard--or somehow I knew--that somewhere in the  Atlantic land had come up. A lot of land. I was getting awfully tired. I  wanted to wake up. I wanted to go back to the girl--to know where she  was--and those two kids. I found myself back in Hollywood--and it was  still 4:29. I wasn't up on Big Bear at all, I was perched over  Hollywood. I was just there. It seemed perfectly natural in my dream. I  could hear now. I could hear, someplace, a radio station blasting  out--telling people not to panic. They were dying in the streets. There  were picture stations with movies--some right in Hollywood--these were  carrying on with all the shaking. One fellow in the picture station was a  little short guy who should have been scared to death. But he wasn't.  He kept shouting and reading instructions. Something about helicopters  or planes would go over--some kind of planes--but I knew they couldn't. Things were happening in the atmosphere.
                             
The  waves were rushing up now.Waves. Such waves. Nightmare waves. Then, I  saw again. Boulder Dam, going down--pushing together, pushing together  breaking apart--no, Grand Canyon was pushing together, and Boulder Dam  was breaking apart. It was still daylight. All these radio stations went  off at the same time--Boulder Dam had broken. I wondered how everybody  would know about it--people back East. That was when I saw the "ham  radio operators" I saw them in the darndest places, as if I were right  there with them. Like the little guy with glasses, they kept sounding  the alarm. One kept saying: "This is California. We are going into the  sea. This is California. We are going into the sea. Get to high places.  Get to the mountains. All states west--this is California. We are going  into the...we are going into the..." I thought he was going to say "sea"  but I could see him. He was inland, but the waters had come in. His  hand was still clinging to the table, he was trying to get up, so that  once again he could say: "This is California. We are going into the sea.  This is California. We are going into the sea." I seemed to hear this,  over and over, for what seemed hours--just those words--they kept it up  until the last minute--all of them calling out, "Get to the  mountains--this is California. We are going into the sea." I woke up. It  didn't seem as if I had been dreaming. I have never been so tired. For a  minute or two, I thought it had happened. I wondered about two things. I  hadn't seen what happened to Fresno and I hadn't found out what  happened to that girl. I've been thinking about it all morning. I'm  going home tomorrow. It was just a dream. It was nothing more. Nobody in  the future on Hollywood Boulevard is going to be wearing earrings--and  those beards. Nothing like that is ever going to happen. That girl was  so real to me--that girl with those kids. It won't ever happen--but if  it did, how could I tell her (maybe she isn't even born yet) to move  away from California when she has her twins--and she can't be on the  Boulevard that day. She was so gosh-darned real. The other thing--those  ham operators--hanging on like that--over and over--saying the same  thing: "This is California. We are going into the sea. This is  California. We are going into the sea. Get to the mountains. Get to the  hilltops. California, Nevada, Colorado, Arizona, Utah. This is  California. We are going into the sea." I guess I'll hear that for days.
                             
This  Dream was written by Joe Brandt, age 17, while recovering from a brain  concussion in a Fresno, California hospital in 1937. Previously  published in "California Superquake 1975-1977?"written by Paul James.  Again published in "When the Comet Runs" by Tom Kay, 1997